I visited my rheumatologist on Thursday. She has me keeping the prednisone at 5mg per day for a month, then halving that to 2.5mg. After one month at that amount I am to stop entirely. I am a little concerned about stopping it completely, but trying to look at all this one day at a time.
The RA symptoms that pretty well disappeared when I started the medication are beginning to return, especially the enormous fatigue. I guess the hydroxychloroquine (Plaquenil) should help all the symptoms but it can take a few months to feel the full effect. I hope it truly does help with the fatigue, because that is the most aggravating symptom. I can live with pain and stiffness in joints, being exhausted and weak constantly is a nightmare.
I think I worry too much. I worry that I will feel worse again and lose all the energy I have gained... I worry that we will not have enough money to pay for things, like medications, the kittens, firewood and food. I worry that I am always going to feel cloudy and lost... I worry that I will never again feel close to the Lord like I used to so long ago.
I wonder why I let myself worry so incessantly about every little thing, most of which I have no control over. I try to blame it on my Mom for "giving me the worrying gene" then I feel guilty for blaming anyone, when clearly it is all in my own head.
I hope to feel more awake and alive soon, but so far things are just foggy.
I suppose I should pray for peace. Have not done that in quite a long while. Maybe it will be easier than I think?